God...

I just never imagine... Everything turn out to be like this... I never want to be greedy.. But, I just never expected this to happen...

I'm annoyed, furious, mad...

Now it seems I can't trust nobody anymore...

Why God... Really why...?

This is way more cruel than ever...

I don't think my effort work on this..

I really disappointed with my life...

I really hate myself...

Maybe she is right... I always wrong..

From back then, till now..

And will always be wrong...

God, only you know what I am, who I am...

If I have to be cruel, let me be God...

I hate to be good.. It's hurt...

It's not as good as I think it is...

Why being good makes me hurt..?

I want to make someone else happy because of me...

I want to be the reason to someone smile everyday...

Even I can't do that.. I'm sorry God...

I can't do this... I'm a loser from the start...

I'm weak..

I'm afraid..

I'm stupid..

~Every moment of you~

I just feel like the stupidest person ever live....

How can I expect something which I shouldn't have expect....

Which is making me miserable like this...

If I were another person looking at me now... I would laugh to death staring at myself...

I just can't think straight when it comes to you...

I get so angry i couldn't show when you get closer with anyone...

It's not that I hate them...

I hate myself why I can't be like that..

WHY I'M THINKING OF IT RIGHT NOW...?

Thinking of you + a mellow song...

Every night means for me...

You are the highlight of my life...

Eventhough you are nothing means... You change my life...

Everything about you is more interesting than anything about me or anything else I think...

That's how you change me...

How wonderful you are? So wonderful..

Only if loving you was an easy thing...

Half my soul want to forget you..

And another half...

They want every moment of you...

Be mine...

So it could be easier... 😥

Birthday

It's her birthday today...

I feel happy just like her...

I'm being normal...

And then I realized that..

Hahaha..

Why I'm being like this...

The feeling of nothing comes to the surface..

I'm killing myself...