Birthday

It's her birthday today...

I feel happy just like her...

I'm being normal...

And then I realized that..

Hahaha..

Why I'm being like this...

The feeling of nothing comes to the surface..

I'm killing myself...

My confession..

Oh God...

I really like her...

That's just totally how I feel right now...

What to do for real...?

This is crazy.. Maybe insane...

Why she is!!! Argghhh

Why she is so tempting!?!?!?

Stahhppp!!

Shouldn't have met her...

...

It's been a year and seven month since my last post...

I fall in love again.. I think...

Finally...

something really really unexpected come..

Something come and I really didn't saw it coming...

I've been watching SBS 'You Who Came From The Stars' drama...

So I can picture this girl as 'my destiny'...

Oh come on mrj.o ...

Why you becoming so weak lately to girls??

No no no..

This girl is really something different...

Is she pretty? Of course she is..

Is she fabulous? Obviously..

Is she worth it? Really really are...

Do you think she'll like you?

Oh God, no.

Unfortunately this girl is really high class..

Super pretty..

Very fabulous and one thing that makes me sure of how much I like her..

She is mysterious...

It's so hard to get close to her..

I'm not concerning mine problem..

I do think i'm already a good man and deserve her well..

But something really makes me going crazy is...

She doesn't even want to get close as a friend..

"She must not like you at all.."

No, not that point at all..

Even if she can't be mine,

At least I could really be her good friend..

Is she reading my mind?

Don't think so..

What makes me so scary?

I don't know...

Time flows..

I need to let her go asap..

And then what I really scared come true..

I can't forget her..

She keeps running on my mind...

I keep thinking about her...

She started to feel like a drug to me...

A sweet drug to my mind..

Not to my heart..

My heart aches..

Aches so much..

Of thinking I can't have her...

Loving her the way I want..

Protect her..

Unfortunately..

She is not my destiny...

Like I hope so..

Her mysterious side...

Keeps me wanting more..

The more I hurt, it feels better..

In fact she'll never know how I feel

Eventhough I tell her..

Nobody cares you pri*k...

Oh God...

Is there any 0,00000001% of

Possibilites between her and me..

The possibilites of something impossible

That I always hope..

How tiring being me..

Feeling heartbroken never a problem..

I get used to it now..

In fact, I just don't want, can't let her go..

Let her slide..

Something I will miss..

What a terrible love story..

j.o

What a drama '?'

Im a crap,lot of crap..
I tweet a shit..

Then you came,and ruin everything
On your own..

First, you are just something else
No one get will get attention on you
I guess..

Then something happen and change anything~

i truly believed anything is happen for a reason..

And i do love you like there's no reason there..

Again,i am a crap.
But i didn't mean that..

But you,you just so different..
Again,i cant find a reason for that..

You came with no reason..

Then left me behind,,...
With a question upon my head??

Oh lovely chick..
U just look like my future wife~

and thats so good to be true..

And i do love you just a best thing to say.. Right now..

Sincerely, your lover~

Oh please . . . Not again . . .

Gue gatau mesti ngapain...
Gue gak rela ajah,,
Lagi" ada yg pergi dari kehidupan gue..
Ah,benci bgt dgn kata" itu..

Sebenernya gue yg tlalu mrasa berlebihan.. Karna segala sesuatunya biasa" ajah..

Tp semuanya beda menurut gua..

I'm tryin to forget all of the things..
But when i don't, oh man.. Seems like i'm fucked up...

Rasanya tuh pait dan gaenak bgt..
Hambar dan hampa..

Like i want to scream 'ENOUGHHHHH!!!!' im tired of this sickness of nothing..

Oh please... Not again . . .

The Scientist by Coldplay

Come up to meet you
(datang untuk menemui mu)

To tell you i'm sorry
(untuk mengucapkan maaf padamu)

You don't know how lovely you are..
(kamu tak tahu betapa indahnya kamu)

I had to find you
(aku harus menemui kamu)

And tell you i need you
(dan bilang,aku butuh kamu)

And tell you i set you apart
(dan bilang,aku akan melepas kamu)

Tell me your secret
(beritahu aku rahasiamu)

And ask me your question
(dan tanya aku pertanyaanmu)

Oh lets go back to the start..
(ohh,mari kembali ke awal..)

Running in circles
(berjalan di segitiga)

Coming up tails
(datang lah ekor)

Heads on a scince apart
(kepala pada ilmu pengetahuan terpisah)

Reff

Nobody said it was easy
(tidak ada yg bilang ini mudah)

Its such a shame for us to part
(ini sungguh memalukan bagi kita untuk berpisah)

Nobody said it was easy
(tidak ada yg bilang ini mudah)

No one ever said it would be this hard
(tidak ada yg bilang ini akan sangat berat)

Oh lets go back to the start..
(ohh,mari kembali ke awal..)

Thx GOD for this touching lyrics and song..

May you bless our separate way..

Thx all...

Mungkin byk org yg gak percaya.
Byk org yg gak perduli.
Byk yg menghina.
Atau apapun itu.

I've been through 3 years di smp ini..
Hard to believe bgt.. Berbagai cerita udh gue hadepin.. Dari yg gk masuk di akal gue sendiri.. Sampe yg gk penting sekalipun..

Too much kenangan di smp..
Rasa seneng..
Rasa kesel,frustasi..
Rasa takut. Sedih.
Gapercaya diri.
Semua ada..

Punya temen..
Punya sahabat..
Punya gebetan..
Punya musuh..

Sebenernya gue gapunya musuh..
Mungkin ad yg gk suka sm gue..
Tp sih kyknya gaada karna gue jg gk macem"..

Pernah menyakiti..
Jg pernah disakiti..

Kadang very kindly..
Kadang emosional..

Kepanasan,
Kehujanan,
Keringetan,
Kebasahan,

I've been through all above..

I feel pain
But,
I gain the experience...

Thx to all the people around me...
To those who support me
To those who hate me
To those who love me
To those who care me
And especially to my dearest Lord,
JESUS CHRIST..

You show me what is life..
You gave me 3 years of happiness!
Thanks GOD!! #blessed