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It's not that I'm not good.. But I will be very disappointed to myself if I fail you... If I make you down.. Or let you go..

Because how precious you are to me now go to the point where you are more precious than myself..

I want to make you feel happy... Whatever happens in the end... It's a promise...

첫 사랑?

My first love?

I don't really have it..

In fact i'm still looking for it..

I really want her to be the best ever..

I want to make her happy.. Even if I can't make myself happy..

I want to love her over and over again..

Even if I forget her, I would love her more and more when fate meets us again..

I want to love her with no reason, so I don't have a reason to leave her too..

Even when things does fall apart, I will never forget her...

Because she is my first love, someone that I love, and love me back.. Tenderly...

See you soon~

God...

I just never imagine... Everything turn out to be like this... I never want to be greedy.. But, I just never expected this to happen...

I'm annoyed, furious, mad...

Now it seems I can't trust nobody anymore...

Why God... Really why...?

This is way more cruel than ever...

I don't think my effort work on this..

I really disappointed with my life...

I really hate myself...

Maybe she is right... I always wrong..

From back then, till now..

And will always be wrong...

God, only you know what I am, who I am...

If I have to be cruel, let me be God...

I hate to be good.. It's hurt...

It's not as good as I think it is...

Why being good makes me hurt..?

I want to make someone else happy because of me...

I want to be the reason to someone smile everyday...

Even I can't do that.. I'm sorry God...

I can't do this... I'm a loser from the start...

I'm weak..

I'm afraid..

I'm stupid..

~Every moment of you~

I just feel like the stupidest person ever live....

How can I expect something which I shouldn't have expect....

Which is making me miserable like this...

If I were another person looking at me now... I would laugh to death staring at myself...

I just can't think straight when it comes to you...

I get so angry i couldn't show when you get closer with anyone...

It's not that I hate them...

I hate myself why I can't be like that..

WHY I'M THINKING OF IT RIGHT NOW...?

Thinking of you + a mellow song...

Every night means for me...

You are the highlight of my life...

Eventhough you are nothing means... You change my life...

Everything about you is more interesting than anything about me or anything else I think...

That's how you change me...

How wonderful you are? So wonderful..

Only if loving you was an easy thing...

Half my soul want to forget you..

And another half...

They want every moment of you...

Be mine...

So it could be easier... 😥

Birthday

It's her birthday today...

I feel happy just like her...

I'm being normal...

And then I realized that..

Hahaha..

Why I'm being like this...

The feeling of nothing comes to the surface..

I'm killing myself...

My confession..

Oh God...

I really like her...

That's just totally how I feel right now...

What to do for real...?

This is crazy.. Maybe insane...

Why she is!!! Argghhh

Why she is so tempting!?!?!?

Stahhppp!!

Shouldn't have met her...

...

It's been a year and seven month since my last post...

I fall in love again.. I think...

Finally...

something really really unexpected come..

Something come and I really didn't saw it coming...

I've been watching SBS 'You Who Came From The Stars' drama...

So I can picture this girl as 'my destiny'...

Oh come on mrj.o ...

Why you becoming so weak lately to girls??

No no no..

This girl is really something different...

Is she pretty? Of course she is..

Is she fabulous? Obviously..

Is she worth it? Really really are...

Do you think she'll like you?

Oh God, no.

Unfortunately this girl is really high class..

Super pretty..

Very fabulous and one thing that makes me sure of how much I like her..

She is mysterious...

It's so hard to get close to her..

I'm not concerning mine problem..

I do think i'm already a good man and deserve her well..

But something really makes me going crazy is...

She doesn't even want to get close as a friend..

"She must not like you at all.."

No, not that point at all..

Even if she can't be mine,

At least I could really be her good friend..

Is she reading my mind?

Don't think so..

What makes me so scary?

I don't know...

Time flows..

I need to let her go asap..

And then what I really scared come true..

I can't forget her..

She keeps running on my mind...

I keep thinking about her...

She started to feel like a drug to me...

A sweet drug to my mind..

Not to my heart..

My heart aches..

Aches so much..

Of thinking I can't have her...

Loving her the way I want..

Protect her..

Unfortunately..

She is not my destiny...

Like I hope so..

Her mysterious side...

Keeps me wanting more..

The more I hurt, it feels better..

In fact she'll never know how I feel

Eventhough I tell her..

Nobody cares you pri*k...

Oh God...

Is there any 0,00000001% of

Possibilites between her and me..

The possibilites of something impossible

That I always hope..

How tiring being me..

Feeling heartbroken never a problem..

I get used to it now..

In fact, I just don't want, can't let her go..

Let her slide..

Something I will miss..

What a terrible love story..

j.o